conflict

this time of year is full of conflicting feelings for me.

i am starting to feel blah and blue because it's dull, grey, dark, cold and often wet.

but i'm also getting kind of excited because it's gonna be christmas. stockings, new years parties, dinner parties, and general jovial feelings.

the result has left me feeling a bit unbalanced. i don't seem to be able to focus on things, and i sit around almost mopeing, then all of a sudden i am excited about some holiday thing. tres etrange.