i did it myyyy waaaayyyyyyy

okay okay, i'll stop singing. sheesh. some people are so picky, the want the tune, they want the key, they want the notes, they want the timing, they bloody well want it all! um. where was i?

oh yes.

hello dearest blog readers. i feel it behooves me to tell you all how much i value your opinion. i especially feel it important to tell you this right now considering what i am about to reveal to you....

first, i must come clean. i realise that my cloak and dagger story of someone hypothetically needing to decide whether or not to tell his or her manager about an impending interview may have left you feeling perplexed, after all, generally i am very forthright in my blog, and so no doubt many of you were thinking to yourself "who could this mystery person be?".

i do apologize for the covert nature of said post and for the undoubted perplexing questions that followed for each of you. it's one of my many talents. i am very crafty and can weave a web of words that leads to such obfuscation that no doubt my true calling is CSIS and not merely as a senior policy analyst with the provincial government.

the answer to your unspoken questions? it was i. i was the person trying to make the decision. not only that, but, wait for it, the situation wasn't hypothetical, it was real. i can hear the chorus of gasps, such suprise, such a testement to my cunning. *sigh* but alas, yes, it was i.

i only hope that you can forgive me for misleading you in such a very clever way.

but wait, that is not the only revelation to me made tonight. oh yes. you read that correctly. there is even more for me to confess to.

and now i would like to reiterate that i truely do value your opinions. this reiteration is important because, well, i am about to tell you that i went against the advice i got from everyone.

on friday i told my manager about the interview i have on wednesday.

she was very good about it. she said she'd like me to stay but understands about the need for a permanent position. she said she doesn't think she has any power to secure me a permanent position where i am, but she is going to look into it.

i decided that ultimately i had to listen to my gut. my gut was saying tell her. i have always been fully upfront about this kind of stuff in the past, but those were different circumstances. that is why i was questioning it. st. snafu said something on thursday that was interesting, she said (i'm paraphrasing) "well, there is how everyone else relates in the workplace, and there is how mainja relates in the workplace, and i think those just aren't generally the same as each other". and she was right. i do interact with my workplace, and the people in it, quite differently than many other people.

as tongue in cheek as the rest of this post is, i do mean it when i say that i value your opinions. i can assure you that this was not a decision i made lightly, a lot of thought went into it, and each of your comments were part of that body of thought. so, thank you very much. and that goes to those of you who emailed instead of commenting on the blog too.

in the end it came down to gut. i always tell people to listen to their gut, it's something i truely believe, so, i had to take my own advice. whenever possibly i try to avoid being a hypocrite...

so, um, yeah, thanks guys.

next up on the taking your advice part of my life, i plan to make pork tenderloin at least once a week until i've used up all the suggestions you guys made. boy. bet john can't wait. nothing a vegetarian likes more than a bit of pig. mmmm. mmmm. mmmm. pig. pig is good.


P.S. kate - we're having pork tenderloin on tuesday... ;)