today is the day

*deep breath*

today is the day.

today is the day i take my mother to the airport.

today is the day that my overwhelming love of my mother causes me pain.

today is the day i see her off, knowing that i likely won't see her again until 2006.

today is the day i try and manage the pain by reminding myself that it dulls.

today is the day i remind myself, i've done it before, i can do it again.