nope, not yet

so, last night i ordered pizza, not enough energy to get groceries. as you can imagine, the lack of energy means lack of pictures posted.

i'm in a very weird space. i haven't dealt with my grandfather's death. i started feeling it on the plan, wept for a bit, then managed to stop because, well, weeping on a plane is embarassing.

but i pushed the feeling down in a way that it now sits in my chest, hovering, waiting to come out at some unexpected time. my plan was to try and access it last night when i got home, but instead i wimped out, i watched television and dulled my brain so i didn't have to think about it.

we shall see what today brings.