I lied (to myself), I am depressed

Okay, it has become abundently clear that I'm depressed.

Full on, no holds barred depressed.

I think I'm going to have to take a leave from work kind of depressed.

Which (although I know it shouldn't be) is completely embarassing.

And maybe I don't, who knows. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. There is no way I'm going to work tomorrow. I had to leave early today.

I broke down at work, started crying over an hour ago, since then I've talked to a collegue in the bathroom, walked all the way home, done some email, and still crying. So fucking typically depressed.