current struggles

so, i am sort of living my life in some strange place of anxiety these days. i'm fairly certain that has to do with the idea of not having a job soon. my contract ends in 6 weeks and they can't extend it, so i'm on the desperate job search.

here's what i know. looking for a job = full time job. looking for a job+trying to do your current bloody job = stress hell. looking for a job + trying to do your current job + running the stupid united way campaign in the thankless place that you work where they're not fighting hard enough to get funding to renew your contract because you committed to it and you would feel like a heel backing out = mainja on the brink of insanity

oh well. so it goes. all will be well someday, i know this. and for now, well, for now i just practice diversionary tactics. last night and tonight i sat in on auditions for a show i'm in because the director wants me to give her feedback on other potential cast memebers.

tomorrow evening i'm going to the farm to pick up food (ahhh, community shared agriculture, it's a warm fuzzy feeling and the best tasting produce you've ever had).

friday i'm spending it with my 'little sister' (from big brothers big sisters) who i haven't seen all summer 'cause she was in ottawa visiting her dad.

saturday i'm hopefully seeing a friend who i haven't talked to in a while who has a new job (she works for bob rae, i am SO jealous and really can't wait to find out how it's going).

and sunday i'm serving brunch to a newly wed couple, sitting on the deck, eating eggs florentine, sipping champagne and handing over their wedding present.

and then i can worry about monday when monday comes. perhaps i will collapse. ;)

that brings us to the end of our program and the begining of mainja's bedtime. night folks!